A Must Have

My first boots.

my sweet inside warming slippers. huhuhu...

my lovely maple leaves gloves

Believed it or not, I really need these things with me like a really really must have. All the time. It's also funny to watch myself wearing boots to school. hohooho...

Note: Happened to watch the Twilight. It's awesome...

Stop Thinking About

doing maths is actually dealing with numbers. This is very old thinking and ancient believes. hehehe... Mathematics is about idea and how the idea works. Solving problems mean nothing unless you know what is the gis of the idea is all about.

This I find difficult. Because in previous time when I'm taking maths courses, I can work out something easily but all involved problems with numbers. But when the generalization comes in, I'm pretty much lost. Honestly I hate to say that x, y is Real number and a, b is Complex number. They keep some memories inside your head which is virtually. But I guess our brain can have some functional for it. Right?

I discussed this with my supervisor today when we were trying to solve some problems involved groups. He asked me to speed up for the work out solution and insist on seeing him frequently if I face any problem. He mentioned that he was trying to train me into solving problem techniques and most important things is getting into the ideas. FORGET numbers but of coz not totally forget.

I feel like I'm living in a MATRIX world.

Note: he was saying that lets us finish these in 4 years...(ow! this sounds helpful)

My First Presentation

Wow...I just finished my first presentation today. And that will be the end of the touchè of the last course of my fall term. There are five of us and the speaker was selected in an alphabetical order. The rest were using their family name instead of their own name but I choose to use mine. And so I was the third person to give the talk.

My topic was quite a straight forward. It is the representation theorem and distributional function. I have to cover two topics which consists of six unequal theorem. The whole idea of the topic was to used the general theorem of converges in order to proof the representation theorem. This is actually a theoretical rather than practical subject. There's nothing more to add up to the theorem. I think I am lucky to have choose this topic. Because in my opinion anyone can do the same if they are given the opportunity. Nothing much to argue.

As usual, like I'm used to give a simple talk during my day at Physics Dept. (for the quantum group discussion..) my aim for the presentation was to make sure that the audience is with me and I'm not carried away with my own thoughts and so on.

First Thing for Everything

Yesterday it was less cold. Even though the snow is started to fall and streets were full of it. Believed it or not, it was my first heavy snow ever. I went to Concordia early (9 a.m.-it was darker and gloomy) as I need to submit my take home final exam for my PDE. I think I've done the best for this final and I just hope that my grade will turn out good. I really hope so. Despite that I've been carelessly lose quite a mark on my 1st and 2nd assignments. But the teacher told me that she'll be OK with it as long as I showed and proved some understanding of the subject.

I also think that I am finally find the right moved and mood to handle things surround me. For the first time I feel that it is a scary thing to have a discussion with the rest of the student. Sharing thoughts and stuff like that. But that happened just because of I was lack of information and at the same time having this feeling of "these people" knows better than me and these "mat saleh" usually perfect in everything. At the end, all I need is do more homework and work real hard.

Yesterday also, I got my first (influenza) flu vaccine shot. Not that I need it, it is just that prevention can make a lot of different. I got a free shot since I've met one of the criteria (living with a 0-23 months child). Else I need to pay 20 dollar for one shot. The vaccine is meant to prevent ourselves from influenza virus. Not that it can prevent us from being cold because of the winter. hehehe...this wording is stated in the module. We need to read it before getting the shots. After the shot was given, we need to stay for approximately 20 minutes to make sure that we don't have sudden (bad) side effects. If that happened then the nurse will take a counter action. But according to survey there's only 3%-7% of people who have the immediate bad side effect. Lucky me, there's no major side effect occured.

Note: Salam Aidiladha

Pe'el Jiran Tetangga

Setelah dipikir-pikir dan dipeteng-peteng, akhirnya dapat cik salma buat kesimpulan tentang pe'el jiran tetangga. Teramatlah baik hati. Hari ini, sedang kami sekeluarga berehat-rehat menikmati sarapan pagi merangkap makan tengahari, tiba-tiba loceng rumah berbunyi. En. salam kata oh, ini mungkin our landlord, Nana Chen. Mesti macam nak tengok-tengok keadaan rumah yang didiami. Tapi bila dibuka pintu rumah, tiada siapa pun yang menunggu diluar. Kami hanya dapati ade sebiji almari (wardrobe) ditinggalkan. Kerana tidak diketahui siapa yang memberi, en. salam hanya menjerit, 'we thank you' to the open air. Dengan harapan org yang memberi mendengarnya.

Ini bukan kali pertama perkara semacam ini berlaku. Sebelum ni ada disedekahkan meja, barang mainan, kerusi dan segala macam. Kini dirumah cik salma boleh dikatakan cukup sempurna. hehehe...

ada seorang jiran ni, siap menamakan anak cik salma 'my little princess'. Segala macam mainan (yang ain memang tak main pun) diberikan. Termasuk juga pakaian. Ain juga dapat candy pertamanya sempena Holloween Day tempohari. Dia siap berjanji the coming new year eve akan ada lagi barang nak diberi.

Kesimpulannya, penduduk disini ramah tamah dan baik hati dan mulut kami dah naik letih menjawab soalan wajib setiap org "how do you do" bila bertegur sapa. Kami pun dah terikut-ikut dgn soalan wajib ini.

Note: Cumanya bilik cik salma dah nak penuh dengan barang ain yang tak guna. Macam mana la nak dismantle nih...

Language Does Matter

I went to another series of ISM Graduate Seminar yesterday at UDEM (University of Montreal). I have missed twice seminar for this venue as it was a French University. This time, the speaker was my friend, Valerie. Her talked was on how to compute the coherent state for a Poincare (2+1) group which is related to my future research (I believe). I asked Valerie earlier wherether she would prepare her presentation in English or French. She said that she not sure yet, not that if I insist. She kind of preparing a bilingua for the presentation.

At the first place I just want to cancel my present to the seminar. Because I don't want to put her in an awkward way. To just speak in English just because of me alone. But again, there's nothing wrong to have the English version as English is our FIRST language ever. So I decided to go and just see what happened. I sit at the very front of the seminar room. The speaker made an earlier announcement in French that she will present in English since there's one student here who don't understand French. Funny that I actually understand her, since she point me to the rest of the room and I can here she pronounced Anglais (English). That obvious huh...

The presentation went on slow. And question and answer keep on popping up in French, until the end of the session. I asked one of my friend from Greek who speak well French. She told me that it's difficult for a French student here to actually understand the English especially the scientific terminology and others. It takes time for them. This remind me of the same situation happened to us to understand the terms in English when we're learning in our mother tongue Malay.

The way that I saw it, the rest of the student who learn science in French has the same 'level' as if one learn in English. Not even far by an inch. In fact some even better.

Bahasa Jiwa Bangsa

Satu perkara yg cik salma rasa seronok ialah bila secara realitinya dapat mendengar ragam ramai bangsa lain dengan bahasa ibunda masing-masing. Mungkin sebelum ini cik salma terbiasa dengan cerita-cerita korea, jepun dan china kantonis tak lupa juga venezula di tv3, ape tuh..ya telenovela. Sekarang di dalam metro boleh dengar sok-sek beberapa bangsa mexico berborak. Tidak cukup dengan itu, ramai lagi bangsa lain di Montreal ni. Korean, Sepanyol, Mexican, Hungary, Chinese (mandarin), Greece, German, dll. Hari ni di lab cik salma, satu lagi bahasa yang cik salma tak pernah dengar. Bukan French atau Italian, Mungkin Poland agaknya. Mereka bercakap, tapi mulut seakan tertutup. cik salma curi-curi dengar tapi tak dapat sahkan bahasa apa. Rakan lab yang sorang ni selalu sibuk, tak pernah duduk di meja nya lebey dari 15 minit. She's always on the move. Kami biasa tegur gitu-gitu jek berbalas senyuman atau angkat kening masing-masing. To me she's look like a Polish.

Semacam seronok mendengar bangsa lain bertutur. Pada cik salma. mungkin mereka-mereka juga rasa terkesima bila dengar cik salma dan keluarga berbahasa Melayu. keh keh...

Note: Rupanya Julia dari Ukraine, she's going to finish this coming Spring for her PhD...